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I mean, life sometimes can have you lost like your compass broke but when you're out here balling you're bound to catch a flagrant. That's just how life is and it's still beautiful—falling means being able to grow sturdier and better, you grow even if sometimes that means going right back to basics. You know how hard it was, coming from the bottom, and staring anew in a foreign place but we still made it girl. You were flying with me but I think I forgot to land, and I'll wholeheartedly miss who we were, but isn't it so much better now?—You have friends literally crying when you walked the field, a stepdad who was out here outsmarting the entire college board of a university so you could get into a program where only 300 people go out of 70,000, a brother who refused to go into the shade cause he wanted to record you getting your diploma, and mom who has held you late at night telling you how proud she is of you and say she still doesn't know who she is without you in her life and that she'll have to learn now that you'll leave—but most importantly, you had me cheering you on. Even if the sight of you in the mirror was the worst thing I could see when I woke up sometimes, you're still me. You're still the little girl who wanted to go out on vacation to a waterpark, the one who got into this fuck ass app but made so many good friends that you love and respect even if we don't talk anymore, and the one who to this day is discovering who she is.
I do love you Arlyn. I always will do, even if I lie and say I don’t sometimes.