erzierudykim

how to subtly convince my parents (esp my mom) that i like my man pretty and my girl handsome? how to tell them, that all the hints ive been throwing around isnt a mere joke that fits the moment, but the truth? ive never intended to hide inside a closet, hell there wasnt even a closet to begin with as ive been saying, saying, saying i dont like boys like that, did not like girls like that either.
          	like lara said, just half a fruitcake. 
          	and, i love fruitcake better than any other cake (this is literal, not a metaphor or anything)
          	(i can accept those chocolatey goodness of indulgence from secret recipe tho)

erzierudykim

how to subtly convince my parents (esp my mom) that i like my man pretty and my girl handsome? how to tell them, that all the hints ive been throwing around isnt a mere joke that fits the moment, but the truth? ive never intended to hide inside a closet, hell there wasnt even a closet to begin with as ive been saying, saying, saying i dont like boys like that, did not like girls like that either.
          like lara said, just half a fruitcake. 
          and, i love fruitcake better than any other cake (this is literal, not a metaphor or anything)
          (i can accept those chocolatey goodness of indulgence from secret recipe tho)

erzierudykim

my hands felt itchy.
          those kind of itchiness that are causes by urges.
          by wants.
          by pain.
          i have this urges of holding a weapon to kill my pain.
          by inflicting a physical pain.
          im sick of being an easily triggered human being despite having an initial thought that i am much stronger than that.
          i am not.
          i am weak.

erzierudykim

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i doubt it that anyone would read my announcement but disclaimer!!! it just my opinion as a reader and unprofessional writer. the books that ive read were not for me obviously, (since ive got a lot of thing to complain) but if people read it and they love it, that's their opinion i wouldn't mind at all. you fuck with it? you go girl!! everyone got a different taste, that's how human are. i used the word 'some' in my ranting, so it's obvious that im not generalising, so you better not be like, "this bitch here said that wattpad story should stay in wattpad like who she is? a freaking 'novel phd holder' or somethin?" cause IT JUST AN OPINION. or shower thoughts you may said. some of wattpad story that are booked physically were so fucking good like from Tenderlova and Tx4cph (im biased, let me fangirling all i want) oh and from Valerie Patkar as well (my new fav author, i adore her work so much.) Malioboro at Midnight is also good!!! so dont fucking twist my word; im not generalising, it just my opinion, and i love literature so much (⁠●⁠♡⁠∀⁠♡⁠ ) ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ
          last thoughts for the author, of course you can do whatever you want with your book whether booked it, write an insane smut, or just write any stereotypical wattpad plot because once again THIS IS JUST MY OPINION. 
          thank you, i appreciate that you came to my ted talk.

erzierudykim

ive been reading a lot of novels lately, both in indonesian and english, and while some of the books are great although it came from the wattpad, some of it were a bit ugh. just my opinion, i felt like not every story on wattpad deserve to be booked and sold in a bookstore. not all of it, but i noticed that some of the book shares some similarities like describing ml as extremely ck model hot, horniness, improper miscommunication trope and many more. it's icky and bland how almost every wattpad novel have this pattern. being said, i hope every author writes something that came from their heart and not following the trend or specific pattern (yes you might did it for your book to sell well, but when written improperly, it felt icky), because something that came from the heart may touches others. your reader may requested for you to write a certain plot or youre influenced by their comments, but before you give in, please overthink it since it's your book. i dont remember where i read this quotes before but, you have to write something by following your own heart, not something that your reader want. some of wattpad story need to stay in wattpad, i said what i said.

erzierudykim

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my thoughts while/after watching Not Friends:
          -miscommunication tropes sucks.
          -honesty is the policy.
          -couldve tell the truth, people will understand.
          -pae is soooo fucking cute. what a sweet smile.
          -he haunts every narrative. that sucks. what a good person.
          -macam penjual minyak wangi, tinggalkanlah haruman mu ke dunia .

erzierudykim

ive lost my creative juice. for some reason, i think that everything that ive wrote lately doesnt sound as beautiful as it did before. it sounds forced, tacky and i felt like i write something for the sake of writing something, and not because i want to properly channel my creativity. im so sorry for you who read my writing and are cringing from it.