Hello everybody! ♥︎
It’s been a while, how are you? (: would love to hear how you’re doing, especially now under quarantine lmao
I have barely been on here since like, I don’t know, January so please, do tell me all the drama *loudly sips iced coffee whilst wondering if asterisks are cringe or not*
On a more serious note, I have been soo socially drained since the last few months, and I have a feeling that’s why I’ve been subconsciously avoiding Wattpad.
Because, you know, nice people who want to have interesting and entertaining conversations with me? Nah, let me just text this one person I literally get anxiety talking to because I cater to them so much and have spent so much time listening to their problems that they forgot I have a personality instead. /:
It’s not their fault, believe me, but I’ve felt so tied down by them that I now dread hearing my phone buzz, thinking it’s them.
I’m wondering if I should cut contact with them, but it would be very awkward since we don’t live that far away from each other and I see them irl sometimes. I’m also worried it might scar them even more than they already are and that they might not open up as easily to others if i end our friendship, but I’m just so tired of being used as a cry pillow.
Yes, you can talk to me about your problems and I swear to you that I will listen, but you also have to see me as a 14 year old girl who has problems too.
I’m sick of playing strong. I’m sick of playing psychologist. I’m weak too sometimes, god damn it.
If anyone could give me any advice about what I should do, I would be very grateful ♥︎
Remember, stay safe, and black lives matter.