i think i need to give an explanation for disappearing to all my friends on here, the thing is, a lot has happened on wattpad to the point i wan't able to enjoy my life outside of this site, or on this site. i began to think that a certain person was behind every nice thing that happened to me (irl, weird right?), this certain person was the person who'd been the reason for a lot of people's pain and misery. leaving wattpad wasn't a one day decision i just sort of wasn't that into it anymore, i wanted to read books to right, but i just didn't want to at the same time. i cut connection from all my wattpad friends and sisters without a word, because i knew if i told you i would've come running back, it was terrible but that was what i needed. i started enjoying time with my irl friends more, the people i used to "hate" form my friend group and complain to you all about turned out to actually be really nice and understanding. i started to be happier, and while i felt guilty, i needed it. i will not promise i will come back properly, maybe i'll just be sort of like a ghost drifting around coming bakc every once in a while. but i need to be selfish, because i want to be happy, because i'd completely forgotten how good happiness was. i was scared of it at a point and now i want to embrace every day.
