I had thought that I had known this person all my life, but past few days I've seen a new version of her, that I haven't seen before, this one feels a little bolder than the old one, this one has prioritized a brief happiness over the pain that will follow. BUT even though she has streaks of the old person she was, she doesn't feel as attached to the past wounds, or maybe because there is a little golden retriever that's protecting the sunshine from all the darkness around. She has even stopped looking for escapes.
Evidently, she's still afraid to feel, but she can't help but feel all the sunshine and joy. She wouldn't use the word "love" per se but turns out she has replaced them with new words, I don't know she keeps saying "sunshine" and "joy" and "sunflowers".
She knows there is an inevitable pain that will follow but sometimes it gives her the hope that it will be worth it. But currently, she is content, maybe that is the reason she has an idiotic smile on her face most of the time.
The quiet one who used to keep to herself all the time can barely keep her mouth shut about most things, maybe it's because the golden retriever says that "there is peace in all the banter"
Maybe it's the little things in life! She seems happier!
