hello everyone!
i’m really sorry it took me so long to update. when i last said i was doing better, i managed to write a few thousand words and thought i could keep going—but right after that, my health worsened. the reason i haven’t updated is simple: i physically couldn’t. i had a short improvement, but then very high fevers hit, and since march, i’ve been in possibly the worst flare-up i’ve had in a long time. it’s lasted over a month and is still ongoing.
i’ve mentioned before that i have scoliosis, but i never went into detail because i wasn’t comfortable sharing much about my health. however, since this has affected my productivity, goals, and life overall for years now, i feel i owe you a clearer explanation for why it’s been so hard to stay consistent with writing. aside from scoliosis and the sciatic pain and muscle spasms, i’m also dealing with chronic peripheral neuropathy. while my scoliosis is “mild,” everything else isn’t. my symptoms are usually localized, but sometimes they become generalized, causing full-body spastic episodes that look like seizures. flare-ups can last days or weeks, leaving me completely bedridden, trying just to recover.
when first diagnosed, i thought it was manageable and i could still live a relatively normal life. lately, i’ve considered getting more tests because it feels like there might be something more going on underneath all this. unfortunately, healthcare is expensive, and i’ve had to skip doses of medication to make it last longer. getting further tests isn’t possible right now—but i hope to pursue it when i can.
