One thing most people don't know is that despite my sincerity and happiness in seeing people around me in love, I personally wouldn't want to have children or fall in love and get married. I've lost so many people in my lives and it was one of the most freaking helpless feeling in the world, to know that you can never be with them. Which is why I never want to take the risk again and fall in love, cause I'm freaking scared to only lose them in the end. 


I love my parents... But sometimes I envy other people's parents. Cause sometimes I feel like they'd care more about me than my own parents would. 

As I read somewhere before, "my parents are good people, they're just not good parents." They do everything for us, financially. I just hope they would do everything for us, emotionally. The worst thing a child could feel is to feel like a burden to their family. I feel just like that.