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i've been watching a lot of police bodycam footage, as i'm one of the applicants for this fall ♡, & i can't believe the aidan one. [dr insanity, brother lures his 10 year old sister to her death]. he sat there for twelve hours, twelve, & stuck with the same idiotic story about how he lost her when they were walking. just to turn around a few hours in & say he left her because she was "annoying". she was ten, ten years old & he robbed her. it makes me so unbelievably bitter & i've built resentment towards these kinds of sick individuals, no matter the age. the detectives had to pry the information from him, & then it took his juvenile detainee friend, & some more damning evidence, for them to find out he sexually assaulted her before murdering her with a metal stick. step─sister or sister by blood, that is beyond disgusting & immoral, it is sickening. a mental illness, or illnesses, gives you absolutely no right to murder, sexually assault, or r/pe anyone, especially a minor, especially your damn family, especially a child. god, it just makes me incredibly frustrated, both aidan & his mother failed kiaya horribly & unforgivably. i hope the father got away from the two of them, & is doing wonderfully now, losing a kid is neither fair nor easy, & i just hope that little girl is at peace now.

hj.

should've never placed my admiration or trust in a demigod.....

you know what? i think i'll lay on a deathbed with fia. / help morgott claim what was rightfully his. / burn the erdtree in melina's place. / or just travel the lands between forevermore with torrent as a fellow traveler.

Ranni’s quest is so long... T_T but completing it is rewarding imo 

i literally just beat the dlc final boss today. it hurt my soul deeply

it's funny because i did her quest when i first played the game but also ranni's quest + frenzied flame so i got the frenzied flame ending first then ranni and the golden order ending(?) i even fought fortissax 

'tis for mine eyes only♡.

[ps.]       i find i now rather like calling you things
            like gorgeous.  i wonder...  (because you are? ♡)

darling arwen.   i caught your message again! ♡
            i love seeing you show up in my notifications. in
            a wall of words like a weighted blanket;    again,
            you are ever the charmer. warmth encapsulates
            me like a hug &      you, the warmest of them all.
            you say       your work has been hard;     about it,
            tell me.  i understand when writing gets.. tough.
            lover, get rest; maybe with my snoring, i may lull
            you to sleep, into the dreaming we slip together.
            i love the way you type now.   so much care into
            every word, as per usual;  as if you carry a robin
            rather than your sentence.  but i love that about
            you. never really careless, are you?    cherishing,
            comforting, adoring;   i (a wounded animal) find
            i am safe around you.  i love you, o, gentle voice
            of sleep.         whilst a tempest winds within me,
            here you speak.  praising me.  please rest good,
            as well as have a wondrous day!    i sleep better 
            with knowledge that you are well.      goodnight.
            
            yours. [a mess/naeris♡.]    sleep well, beautiful.

darling arwen.  i saw your message this time!
            thank goodness, i caught it.     how are you...?
            free as a bird, i assume —  hands like a ghost
            upon mine;    how does one even speak when
            you give me a message like that?     beautiful,
            descriptive.       i would say you flatter me, but
            it would diminish the words.      you truly, truly
            fluster me. i go red at your message, beam at
            the descriptions.     i am, unabashedly, in love
            with the way you write.   a wonderful thing, to
            see your writing;  like a blessing granted unto
            me.       but lest i natter on & on, let me stop ♡
            i hope you are well. i know we've been unable
            to talk to each other since i've been inactive &
            active.       i was having a hard time; not to say
            you haven't, of course.  speaking of, you never
            tell me about yourself...     how are your days?
            are they scary?     stressful?     dreadful, even?
            do you sleep well?       i've been sleeping later.
            thinking of you, mostly.                            guiltily.
            
            yours. [naeris♡.]               sleep well, gorgeous.