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i feel bad for my partner bcuz theyre the only person i open up to and vent to and i feel like im too much for them sometimes and ik how mentally draining it is for someone to be dependent to u and like vent to u (im not tht dependent and ive only vented to them like four times but still) and i feel like uh actually idk what im talking abt but u get the point

YAY AKUTAGAWA THEME

NOS R U OKAY?! :(

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          cvtt1ng doesnt feel as good as it used to it hurts sb idk why i wanted to do it again
          also im cooked i think it scarred

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          so uh this one person who terrifies me jst found my yt acc....
          so basically theres this girl named abby (im using her actual name bcuz she uses her actual name online and in her yt she basically explains everything abt her) and shes in 7th grade 
          we met in this thing my school has called project term (the last two weeks of school) (im too lazy to explain it but ill explain it sometime) and i only talked to her bcuz my cousin is friends w her
          now obviously shes a middle schooler and im a high schooler so how does a middle schooler scare me??
          well....
          she stalks ppl, will randomly vent w out permission, is a liar, has a book on how to k!ll and bury ppl, and tht might be it but idk
          when we went to the zoo during project term the ONLY thing she did was vent to me
          i was glad tht she was comfortable w me to vent but she didnt ask to vent she jst straight up starting venting and tht was the ONLY THING WE TALKED ABT FOR ALMOST 8 HOURS...
          also she told me how to cvt myself w out there being scars...? and then told me not to do tht? why would u tell me and expect me not to?? (i didnt but still)

i finally told someone other than my partner abt my problems but only my home problems and how i dont like my family but now i feel weird and i wanna cry
          also i told catnap (my friend) and their sibling
          i think catnaps bf and cool person (my new friend) heard but idc
          ALSO IM FINALLY NOT THT INSECURE ABT MY STOMACH!!
          jst im only comfortable showing my friendgroup (theyre the bhug friendgroup) and ppl idk

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          send help im like st4rving myself but not w intent to h4rm myself theres jst literally no food in my house tht i wanna eat :p

since like no one is gonna see ts I CAN FINALLY RANT :3
          
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          ok so i have this "friend" (shes not my friend idk what to call her tho) whos in a grade above me who makes me SO uncomfortable...
          she always makes literally EVERYTHING s3xu4l no matter what it is
          when i was in sixth grade she told me she has a crush on me (she still does...) and i told her i didnt like her back bcuz i was aroace at the time and she got mad at me?? bcuz i said i didnt like her and i was aroace?? she also told my friend catnap tht she had a dream abt fvck1ng me and catnap....
          so i stopped talking to her and now im talking to her AGAIN bcuz she keeps talking to me...
          she keeps hanging out w my friend group and the only reason why im kind of ok w it is bcuz shes not mentally ok rn so shes not making uncomfortable jokes
          she still touches me (thankfully not innapropiatly) random like she will randomly hug me and stuff which makes me more uncomfortable and im scared to be like in a room alone w her bcuz shes also known for s@ing a lot of ppl,,,

Boiiii, stop being a furry son

meow :p