You wanna be happy don't think twice about death but think about what you are doing, Just live your life with the people you love (even if their idols and doesn't live with you, they still love you because they said they love their 'f/n' [fandom name] and that's your 2nd name and family name, and you should love them back. We are not us, they are not them, because we are one big family/fandom