εïз zen εïз

+ bren + zen = 4ever.

+ and i love you.

+ cringe but i love rex orange county. 

insanely tragic. the way ill do whatever the universe tells me , yet another painful lesson , eh?

i’ve actually never met a gal with such passion and that fire in their eyes. a person that’s never had the feeling to go and intentionally hurt someone , or even such matureness. i envy that , i envy how precious and aware you are. and i know that many other people do too. i feel bad for those who never went out of their way to get to know you because they’re truly missing out , they’re missing out on a beautiful soul that can change the perspective of many. a girl that can make you feel things you never though one could. a love that’s so distinct to any other love you’ve felt before. man i’ll miss you , i’ll miss you so much mamas. please be back soon , i’ll never let you go then. and i’m sorry i’m so , possessive ? i don’t think that’s the word , i feel like a piece of me has been ripped apart without your presence , zen. how do you have all this power over me ? i don’t remember even crying about my families presence. you’re so different. you’ve made me feel again. i adore you. please keep safe , shower , take care , eat , hydrate. take time to attend to yourself.

man , zen. you’re so remarkable. did you know that ? you’re immensely smart , precious , joyful , daring , creative , the list goes on. i’d never expect you to be able to hold so much grief  and hurting. disappointed in the universe for letting such an angel , feel such. 

i remember exactly how i hit you up. and how you stayed up all night to talk. i’ve never met someone that had so much to say , not in a bad way. but in a way where now , people are to full of pride. you’re unlike any other , fillmore. you’re worth everything in this universe , the known , and the unknown. the fact that i’d give up everything i own (yes , even my robert plant signed poster ) just to see you happy again. to remove all your hurting. all those experiences that’s dragged you down to the point where you don’t feel like getting out of bed , or waking up again.

• ok , it’s been a long time ): r u ok?

• i miss you , it’s been like three minutes 
            since i’ve texted you and yet i have not received a reply. 

i can’t stop reading this , imy. 

please

i miss you , i hope you come back soon. 

muah ur so cute n precious and ily

ZEN IS SO BABIE I LOVE ZEN