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I just watched Evan’s documentary and I think that this documentary was why the company and the members waited so long before Jungwon had to speak up. I believe they were waiting for this documentary to come out. I came on here to say that this one moment Heeseung really stuck out to me.
          
          “The really strange thing is that, last night… back in my trainee days there was a stretch where I was improving fast and back then I felt this huge sense of accomplishment and happiness. I felt exactly that yesterday. I thought wow, this is from ten years ago. This is what I felt back in my trainee days. This moment doesn’t come around easily. I wanted to feel that passion, that satisfaction, that happiness again. But it didn’t come as easily as I’d hoped. If, even ten years from now a moment like that comes again, I want it to be exactly like this.”
          
          I first want to applaud him for going after that passion again. I feel that a lot of idols feel the burnout very quickly after they debut or go after their dream of being idol without wanting to be a true artist. It’s clear that he didn’t feel the same passion in Enhypen as he did during his trainee days and I don’t think it’s fair to criticize his choice to leave because it is incredibly brave to go after a happiness that you don’t even know will show up. From what I’ve seen, I’m not sure he ended on good terms with Enhypen, and I think he rejected the leader position all those years ago because he knew that he wanted more. It will be hard to accept this transition, but this documentary will be a sort of “breakup” for some Engenes who choose not to continue being a fan. They will finally get the closure that they are looking for. 
          
          It is not selfish for him to pursue happiness, because it’s what any of us would do in his position. I can see that he is learning so much as a solo artist, even being in the industry for a decade. I’m happy for him and I hope other Engenes and Evers will support him and Enhypen too.

Jungwon made it so explicit that he wants us to move on, but people are still blaming Belift for forcing him. I don’t agree with the way Belift has gone about this transition (as said in my previous post about this) but everything that Jungwon was saying is true.
          
          As someone who has followed kpop for over 7 years, the disputes between fans of the same fandom have never been greater, and it’s obvious Jungwon doesn’t want to see his community deteriorating like this. By putting out this statement, he is taking the chance that many people will stop being engenes for OUR sake. So that WE stop the infighting. Why can’t so many people see that Jungwon is incredibly brave to be doing this?
          
          I saw a comment on a tiktok saying that someone can’t find comfort in Enhypen anymore. It’s great if your idol gives you comfort or keeps you going in hard times, but we have to remember that our idols don’t owe us anything. At this point, Enhypen has gone through a change, and we should’ve been there to support them through this. At the end of the day, our idols are not our friends and are not there to perform (outside of the stage) like puppets for our sake. They are artists and sometimes people forget the fact that they are here to perform their music. I supported heeseung from the start because I think that most of the idols have forgotten what it is like to have that passion for music and performing. I understand wanting to hold on to good memories, but I think that this change will teach many engenes how to move on. We can’t stay the same forever, and neither can Enhypen. 
          
          I said in my last post that I don’t know if I will ever get clarity, but I am going to take Jungwon’s statement as his own words and will no longer comment further on this situation unless something changes dramatically. I will be supporting Enhypen and I will be supporting Evan. I hope many of you do the same and learn that change doesn’t have to be a bad thing.

New chapter of memories posted!!! Sorry for the rant earlier just needed to get some stuff off of my chest. Love you guys <333

My perspective on Evan's situation, because I haven't expressed my real opinion yet:
          
          I enjoyed ride or die and overflow. I will support Evan in his solo career. What I've been seeing on tiktok about his solo debut is really disappointing tbh. I've seen so many so-called engenes saying that ride or die isn't a good song, but recently the k-pop industry has been saturated with generated, repetitive, soulless music. I've read the interviews that Evan has had with weverse magazine, rolling stone, etc., and it seems like Heeseung has put a lot of care into the music he is making. It's completely fine to not enjoy a song, but going online to hate is really a waste of time. He has the courage to go out and try something new in the monstrous industry that K-pop is. Whether the music is good or not, I want to support someone who is trying to make a difference in his career. 
          
          ...continued thoughts in the previous announcement below

Still, I want to make it clear that the way belift is going about this transition is absolute shit. Enhypen has gone through SO many absolutely horrible experiences, and I felt that, even before Heeseung left, they weren't able to really show their true selves the way that other groups can (TXT, Seventeen, Twice). The Enhypen members should not have pretend like Heeseung doesn't exist. I can't speak for what the members feel, but if they supported his solo debut, they should be able to support it publicly too. If Yeonjun left TXT for his solo debut (which I know he wouldn't do), the other members would absolutely be happy for him and support him on their social media. I just can't understand why belift won't allow them to interact, because it's just making the fans go against each other. What kind of a company forces its own group's fans to turn against each other when we know this isn't what any of the members wanted? Why would belift not allow the members of Enhypen to make a statement saying that they openly support his career? Why are they estranging these two worlds as if they didn't exist together? I can't help but feel sorry that both Enhypen and Evan can't express their true feelings. I'm still having a hard time wrapping my head around the situation, and it doesn't feel like I'll ever truly understand it. I hope that some clarity will come in the future, and they will both be able to support each other openly in the future.
          
          Happy birthday to Sunoo and congratulations to Evan on his solo debut! I'm working on another chapter of memories, so look forward to that! Pls feel free to share your perspectives on this situation <333

sorry for not being active recently (diagnosed with gad lol) but expect a memories update coming later today!!!

it’s gotten so bad I’m considering just becoming a Minecraft, animal crossing, kpop, lifestyle, art, travel YouTuber with a hundred interests and no passion

Happy yang garden day!!!

today was an incredibly hard day for me, but knowing that I can come on here and be myself without putting up a mask is so comforting :,)
          
          I posted another chapter of memories for you guys which improved my mood significantly so thank you<333