GUYS I FEEL SO FRICKING HELPLESS AND KINDA STUPID AND SHALLOW RN
ALSO ***RANT/EXTREMELY LONG MESSAGE WARNING***
ok so right now it is approximately 11:50 am, so 11 hours and 50 minutes ago at midnight i texted my crush merry christmas and i understand that he’s probably spending time with his family and whatever so he might not have had time to reply, but i just need a “thanks, merry christmas to you too” or something to calm my crippling anxiety over this. anD I FEEL SO STUPID BC ITS JUST A BOY BUT AT THE SAME TIME ITS KINDA NOT BC IT COULD BE A BOY THAT LIKES ME BACK IDK HES SENDING MIXED SIGNALS KINDA CUZ THERES THIS OTHER GIRL WHOS LIKE 98% OF THE TIME NOT MY FRIEND AND 2% OF THE TIME SHE IS ANDS HES PRETTY CLOSE FRIENDS WITH HER AND THEY KINDA ACT LIKE THEY LIKE EACH OTHER BUT LIKE he acts like soooooo much differently around me than he does w her. so he and i are in the same asl class (and i kinda sit directly in front of him and it makes me soooo fucjing nervous) and so for asl our teacher requires us to go to Deaf events to get the firsthand experience of communicating with Deaf people because it’s very different from communicating with ASL students. and so on friday i went to an event at starbucks and i saw him there and i was with one of my friends who happens to know him too and we were waiting for our coffee to be made. and so he sees us and he says hi like he would to any other person, but when he saw me, his eyes lit up and he waved at me (he didn’t wave at our friend). and then so fast forward to when i was outside starbucks with him and his friends, who i’m friends with, abd so when they were going to leave and i was going to stay for a little while, we said our goodbyes and he kinda shyly said bye to me and he lightly touched my upper arm as he passed me and i can’t sgop replaying that moment in my head and i feel lightheaded and my stomach feels like it’s churning butter and i’m realizing that this is not okay but idk what else to dooooooooo omg