@AllTimePhan73 you don't have to be sorry, be happy that you found a different way of looking at it, like i did, and i hope it stays as long as possible and if not, that you'll find you way back to that less self-destructive thinking, cause destroying may be more satisfying, but building and achievement lasts longer:') just think of that the next time you feel sad, or feel like you're about to be, love ya 2;')<3 and i hope things will start falling into the right place for you