feistyrat

reached the point in yearning where i'm just a little fed up with it but am equally not gonna make any effort to act on it or move on

some days i open tumblr and i see funny silly things and some days i open it and i see a post saying that lewis getting a pitlane speeding penalty for exceeding the pitlane speed limit is..... checks notes.... racist?

i've realised one of the reasons i love heartstopper so much is bc every character, every friendship, every relationship has a fragment i can relate to. there may be a lot of things i feel are unrealistic or just not at all like my experience but each tiny aspect that is fits together and it's joyous and painful all at once

trying to figure out if i'm in a bad mood bc i'm bored and trapped in my house and miss uni where i could leave any time i wanted bc it's in a city with public transport or if it's a side effect of the wonderful birth control i've been prescribed. it's probably the former but that doesn't bode well for the rest of the summer. only 2.5 months until i go back...

reading and watching heartstopper while in a yearning place in my life is painful. stop holding a mirror to my thoughts thx

i hate the dilemma of when the person i like only reacts to my message in a conversation and no one else's and idk if it's bc they like me or i'm just really funny

went to the doctor with problems and of course they offered me birth control (understandable however it wasn't my only problem so it shouldn't have been the only solution) and then, more concerningly, when i expressed concern about it he suggested not giving me anything as an option without mentioning things like cancer risk? hello ever heard of informed consent?

i once again checked the football score with no uncertainty in my mind that we'd got what we deserved and had lost the game. somehow we keep winning games now. how tf are we in the semi finals. we're not good at playing football. drc should've knocked us out

getting exactly the grade you thought you would in exams is kinda underwhelming ngl. like am i proud i got a very middling 2.1? yes. actually all things considered that's very good. however, i kinda saw that coming so....
          anyway, gonna lock in and try to get a first next year

reread heartstopper vol 1-5 and read vol 6 earlier and now i need to read solitaire bc i fear i want whatever tori and michael have going on