feminoIogy

gonna be nightwing for halloween i'm so freaking excited

feminoIogy

hiiii does anyone have break up advice ... my boyfriend and i just broke up and he was a really horrible person who hurt me in ways that no girl should ever have to experience at such a young age, but unfortunately i'm still attached to him bc we were together for 3 years
          i don't want him back but i don't want him to move on either if that makes sense, and i know he will move on and i can't prevent that so i just need some help on how to be okay with a life without him because i still have so many questions on why he hurt me, but we're no contact and i can't talk to him
          any advice would help, i love hearing different people's perspectives and how they heal, maybe i can learn a few things from it instead of just feeling miserable all the time lol

feminoIogy

@andromqda aww ur so sweet :(( i am in no rush to jump into another relationship, i do want to focus on myself because being with him for so long made me lose myself in the process. wanting answers to my questions is the hardest thing i'm dealing with right now, but you're right, it will just turn into a cycle if i keep looking for closure or answers. we broke up in september of 2025 when i found out about his cheating and when he came back and promised change i believed him. he was loyal the second time around but so so abusive, and he blamed me for his actions and always compared me to the girl he cheated on me with. i feel like a fool for trusting him again and my entire nervous system is ruined because of him. i really just want to heal and not worry about him and what he's doing without me.
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feminoIogy

@motherguts thank you! this definitely helped. he was so verbally and emotionally abusive to me and cheated on me multiple times, but part of me is still attached to him because i refuse to believe that his love for me wasn't real. i know it's not going to get better because he's just a narcissist who doesn't take accountability and always makes me feel like it was my fault that he cheated and abused me. i definitely don't want to be in a relationship with him anymore, but i'm haunted by the possibility that he will treat the next girl better. part of me is also grateful that i got to experience all of this at such an early point in my life because now i know what i'm going to tolerate in a relationship and what i'm not.
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andromqda

learn how to do things alone. being with someone for so long especially somone that hurts you you kind of depend on them so spending time with yourself is a big on. It also gives you time to reflect and want to do other things like going on solo dates. Stop having questions on why he hurt you. You’re just going to fall back into a continuous cycle. You’re not responsible for knowing his thoughts you’re only responsible for your owns. Block his number, unfollow him on social media do not have any way you can contact him. Trust that is something that will be tempting to contact. FOCUS ON YOURSELF. do not get straight into another relationship not even getting to know anybody. Because once you do you just start ignoring your feelings and the more you ignore it the more it creates bigger problems. Do not think about what ifs, keep going on with your life not thinking about the past. You can’t change the past. Also im sorry you’re going through a break up it’s very tough to go through especially for a long term relationship and one that wasn’t healthy but i promise a break up is not the end of the world it’s just the beginning of something more beautiful <33
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