ffeymi_jel

hello everyone! rest assured chapters are being written despite my hiatus 
          
          it's been bothering me more and more recently that a number of new (and old) readers of 'just for you' take the darker themes of the story personally. i felt that this PSA is important as an author who engages in sensitive topics, especially after reading many of your comments  
          
          PLEASE do seek professional help, or if you're in a situation where doing so is impossible, then contact someone you can trust, no matter how small or insignificant you may think your feelings are. your emotions are what bring life to stories, every fiction you've loved, every moment you've lived, and avoidance is the biggest and easily the most damaging coping mechanism globally. to feel is to hurt and to hurt is to feel-- no feeling of your precious hearts deserve to be disregarded. please use my stories to find hope and comfort, not to wound yourselves further 
          
           please know that no matter how bad or even how good life is, there will ALWAYS be better times! just like how this fic may have brought you joy, but you may eventually love another one even more; like how much better my mental health and wellbeing is now, just a mere few years later. time may not heal physical scars, your past actions nor the hurt from the times you've been wronged, but it can make you stronger just like it has made me!
          
           ❣️ all of you are beautiful, i know from the way you can express your opinions strongly, decisively; i know from the way you can give praise, give love easily when it used to be the hardest part of my heart to give away; i know because i may not be physically pretty or perfect but i can now see things i love about myself first when previously i did not.
          
           regardless of where you are in life right now! thank you all so much for supporting me as an author and i can only hope this is the spark my writing can inspire in the future :))
          
          have a good one!
          -ffey

i was trying to rewrite "just for you" right before i got busy, and i just couldnt get the beginning right. i know people liked the story because of the tropes, the mystique, and the straight-to-the-point storytelling with a little bit of guessing here and there. but i really really dislike the way the story was written (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)
          
          for instance, i wanted there to be more establishment of FL's original situation in the "perfect" world. like: the friends she had, the way people treated her, the worries and dreams she held etc. but it's really tough to get this part in without boring the reader. i know everyone just wants to read the part where the fl goes crazy and falls in love with rui but i wish i had a way to make everything more impactful without drawing away the original readership  i know some will appreciate the better writing (like for "if only, once again") but there is just something about the plot in "just for you" that has an indescribable charm. 
          
          anyway, ill keep thinking of what to do about this! hopefully by november ill have some results to show. i hope that in my remastered version of this truly precious fic, i can give new life to both the y/n and rui in this story!