fictionerita

Hiiii, sometimes i wonder that how every bad news comes in a single day together like a bomb. My grandfather (in relation) died, I was sad but not so sad because he was already suffering from his accident but today wat not today just 30 minutes ago, i found that one of my favourite great grandfather died and yk what is the saddest thing is that today is his tervi and we didn't know because his family doesn't want to keep any relationship with us but he, he used to love us like his own. He used to come in every six months and stay with us and he was loved by everyone in our village and family but we weren't even informed about his demise, don't we even deserves to know? I miss him dude, i hate the fact that now i wouldn't be able to see him again, it's hurting. He was so dear to me so so dear but I wasn't even informed about it. What was my fault, what was my parent's fault? Is it because we weren't blood related?

fictionerita

Hiiii, sometimes i wonder that how every bad news comes in a single day together like a bomb. My grandfather (in relation) died, I was sad but not so sad because he was already suffering from his accident but today wat not today just 30 minutes ago, i found that one of my favourite great grandfather died and yk what is the saddest thing is that today is his tervi and we didn't know because his family doesn't want to keep any relationship with us but he, he used to love us like his own. He used to come in every six months and stay with us and he was loved by everyone in our village and family but we weren't even informed about his demise, don't we even deserves to know? I miss him dude, i hate the fact that now i wouldn't be able to see him again, it's hurting. He was so dear to me so so dear but I wasn't even informed about it. What was my fault, what was my parent's fault? Is it because we weren't blood related?

fictionerita

Why always things doesn't happen in your favour? Why even after having parents you feel alone and unwanted? What to do when you are getting ready to be sent away like a sack of potatoes? What to do when no one understands you? What to do when you are even getting awkward with your family? What to do when you fear commitments, real men and marriages but no one understands you? What to do when everyone just put oil in your fire of phobias? What to do when you feel that it would've been better if I died? What to do?

fictionerita

@Abtsarmy07 my best wishes to you as well!! I wish you succeed in your career and become the lady your mother wished to be ❤️❤️❤️
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@Abtsarmy07 i can feel you, i can feel your craving for not born again as a girl next time. I know the efforts we as elder sister do to protect our siblings from these fightings. I've seen my brother shaking when my grandmother used to be beaten and I was the one who would calm him but now things changed, my brother is about to be 18 and now he knows and can understand the abuses of our family. He even fights with my grandfather for my grandmother but there's no use and he was stopped by my mother because it could harm their reputation. IT MEANS THAT BEATING AND ABUSING YOUR WIFE, YOUR SON, YOUR DAUGHTER-IN-LAW, YOUR GRANDCHILDREN IS OKAY FOR THAT FREAKING REPUTATION BUT  FIGHTING AGAINST HIM IS NOT. MY GRANDFATHER IS A FUCKA*D TO BE NOTED, HE SHOULD BE ARRESTED BUT NO HE'S THE FUCK*NG ELDER OF MY FAMILY.
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@Abtsarmy07 hm, i think every girl from a middle class family related to us. They can relate that how it hurts listening your relatives, family and parents say that you are just a guest and will leave. The way they pressurized us to be the ideal girl otherwise no one will like us. I have seen every marriages of my family and they are toxic except my parents and these haunting scream of my aunts begging for mercy makes me shiver and question that what if it my future? I've seen my grandmother getting choked and would've died Long time ago if my dad didn't interrupt. I have heard that how my uncle beaten my 9 month pregnant aunt. These things traumatized me to even think about marriages. I started writing to escape the harsh reality and give the ladies of my family happy ending they deserves. Poonam is one of the character who I wrote to give happy ending to one of my aunt. I don't hate men but in real I'm scared of falling in love with a man and getting broken by him every single day the ladies of my family did and doing.
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