You know even though I am 18 now, it doesn't feel like it. When I was in 12th, I used to think I am just 1 year away from being an adult then what? What kind of changes will I have to make in my behaviour and personality?
I often answered this question as 'I'll have to behave as a nonchalant yet smart individual. I'll have to be calm and in times of distress, I must keep my cool, do my best and accept whatever the result may be.'
I am able to do the latter one. But the former resolution never remains solid for a long time.
I understand that people of my age have different priorities and no matter what I should be able to interact with them, even if it is just a little bit.
But it is still slightly awkward for me to talk to people of my age. Rather I am able to mingle with kids. With them, I talk according to their interest and even play with them. And as you know, in this digital world, kids are more likely to play digitally. However, most of the times I urge them to play physical games like tag, cricket, football, etc.
This makes me wonder if I'll ever grow up from this behaviour of mine. Not that I hate this behaviour, but it makes people not to take me seriously. It can be annoying.
Here, in dadiyal (is that what you used to say??) I can't speak a word with my cousins, with whom I used to play a lot as a kid. Rather, I was quickly able to bond with my Chacha's youngest son. He teases me, I tease him. And he is the one here, with whom I can talk a lot.
Nana k yaha to phir bhi bahoto se baat kr leti thi.
Ufff.... what a long message!
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