i wonder what you're doing right now, it's gotten harder to move on from you. i paid ron to give you a note for me but you're never home, I saw your ig account get banned and i'm not able to get it back since my phone isn't working. I hope you find out that you can text from this account again, if you remember the password that is. alot has happened since we lost spoke not to long ago, marcus used me. i let him into my life, gained at first what i thought was feelings but soon realized it was just attachment. he used me to get what he wanted, and used me for my body aswell. I'm sorry I didn't listen to you when you said something about him. In honesty, I still miss you, i miss you alot more than I want to admit. I've grown to realize that throughout our 4 years together and all my previous relationships; you're the only person I think i had a real connection with. the only person i think i actually did love. i do still love you, i always have and i wish i could tell you that but I have no way too until you get my note. I wish you the best, jay. I really do, I'm alot better now I hope you know, I changed alot and I hope one day I ge to prove to you that I did, my arms will always be open for you, forever and always. I wish we didn't end off like this, I wish i got to hear your voice again, I wish i got to hear you say, " i love you " one more time or to hear you call me those amazing nicknames you made up for me. i want to call again every night and play games with you, hear about your day and hear your laugh, listen to your jokes and your horrible attempt at flirting, i miss all of it. i miss our plans, i miss our hangouts, i miss our calls, i miss the way you always made time for me. I miss it, i miss it alot and i'd do anything to get it back
