Charlie

I think I am finally on my way to becoming happy and enjoing life again, well at least for now. Not like anyone will read this but it is nice formyself in the future to look back on how I have been doing (which most of the times is bad

„Ja, ich weiß, ich sollte Hitler töten
          Oder beim Titanic-Bau das Schiff zerstören
          Aber hätt' ich eine Zeitmaschine, wär' mein Reiseziel
          In deinen Armen und da bleib' ich liegen“
          

Fuck I really wanted to die the last few months. Thanks to music I survived. 

          So don't stop me now
          Don't stop me
          'Cause I'm having a good time
          Having a good time 
          

Thanks for being there for me when I didn‘t want to be here at all.

Sometimes everything is too much and you just want to stop existing for a while.
          
          Can I have a non-permanent on-off-switch for my life?
          

Ich denke viel über Vincents „Kornfeld mit Krähen“ nach, dieses Gemälde hat so eine Aussagekraft. Schade das es kein Bild davon gibt, dass dem Gemälde gerecht wird. 

So give me something to believe
          Cause I am living just to breathe
          And I need something more
          To keep on breathing for
          So give me something to believe
          - The Bravery 

Who cares if one more light goes out in a sky of a million stars? - Well I do.
          Ruhe in Frieden
          16.08.1998-21.10.2018

Wenn man realisiert, dass 2020 näher ist als 2010.