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I have a question

WHY DID ANYONE READ ANYTHING I WROTE PLS ITS ALL SO BAD

https://www.wattpad.com/story/276760603-this-is-good-shit?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create&wp_uname=varsitytrain773&wp_originator=kjAKIe+keqQqIGb5mlFrHBIcvji2GF3wDtMr7qpjdxomPle%2F66l+d9g+LnxAqqVzouaBRj86q7sn1af8iktnSAa+kgfsQTdGUGHm+shNqZboD5rWQXONe3V3PArD3u7r
          
          please read it guys.......

SUP FUCKERS
          Now that I can say my mental health is deeply declining I can probably get into writing again because it's a vicious fucking cycle and this is therapy at this point in my life
          I'm either going to be writing a countryhumans x reader thing because I dont give a fuck about the unrealism of it, nothing's supposed to be accurate and you can't ask for things to mAkE sEnsE aND bE rEalIStiC when theyre literal countries as PEOPLE
          or im going to rewrite the Unwanted FIGHTS BOOK BECAUSE HONESTLY?? The heteronormativity makes me gag
          I'm probably going to do them both on and off and the one that ends up being finished first will probably be published. I haven't posted in fucking ages and when I find my phone again there's gonna be an art dump on the art book I started a while ago.
          You get a cool point if you actually read this far, also, if a book is unfinished and I know I won't finish it, should I publish it? Thanks, bye-

Oh jesus a lot's been going on so something kind of has to be said.
          The book I was writing I have lost all inspiration for and I was only half way through. It's unfinished and I don't want to put any more effort in. All my headcanons of the characters have changed and it's difficult to try and write them in a story I have no interest in and how they're structured is so- EUGH
          
          I've been working a lot on character designs because I struggled with seeing things from different points of view with people's different opinions. So the antagonist would always know the full situation but just CHOOSE do be a dick about it. I've learnt a lot more now and I find a lot of things wrong with the story I wrote. 
          I really do not feel comfortable with posting any chapters of that and I hope you understand. I'm a perfectionist and I don't know how long it'll take to finally get me to post something but I hope it'll be soon.

I'm making 9 OCs all with either mental problems or a tragic backstory and nobody can stop me. 

Heya cool cats and kittens
          
          SO SO SO SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN ACTIVE IM TRYING THERES A LOT OF EDITING GOING ON AND IT MAKES MY BRAIN TURN SMOOTH
          
          But I'm thinking about changing my wattpad name and pfp because I dont know I'm bored and need ~change~ so asdfghjjdhsbjkdfhk 
          
          but yeah byebye youre all really cool

AND YES IS IT CHRISTLER YET BECAUSE IM AUSSIE 

MERRY CRISIS!!
          
          MERRY CHRISTLER

OK SO YA BITCH LIED
          
          
          I have been getting writers block after writers block lately and I cant get passed this stupid fucking chapter so it will take even longer than expected. Oh my god, something not going according to plan after I announce it??? What a big surprise!!
          
          Anyways, I would also like to say that its not really like my last book(s, if you count the deleted ones-) cause I've actually done a stupid amount of research for or I  book nobody would even care about either way and hopefully some things come in more naturally, cause I'm looking at my old book and that whole thing wasbe  hit you in the face with the plot. Its going to be laser focused on one person's PoV because i want to show that things have happened without specifically telling you by switching points of view.
          
          Like, open ended things that get cleared up in later chapters because if you were that person, you wouldn't know yet, instead of purposely writing it in as the character being oblivious to everything. 
          
          A lot of chapters start and finish in ways I didnt plan them to, or I have to edit older chapters because I thought of something new I wanted to add in, just- a LOT OF STUFF THATS CONSTANTLY BEING EDITED
          
          And its not going to be like 20 chapters, I'm planning for at least 50. So its taking a LOT of time- im going to be writing everything first, then publishing later. Sooooooooooo yeah! Just a status- update- thing. I might write a Christmas thing on my art book simply because festivity and such. I dont know what it'll be about but it probably won't be rusame for the fucking 20TH TIME IN A ROW FHDJDHAJDHJFDJFJFJ
          
          BHUUYTTTTT YEAAHHHH! Just a quick update and if I want to add teasers with drawings from scenes, or just write one-shots because I can, I might do that to get something out! Just- the story is taking a LOT LONGER than expected! Feel free to ask any questions! ByyEeeEeeEe