hello tsukasa I read your vent and I couldn’t help but comfort you through this mess,your life is not worthless you were made for a reason. Your parents love you and the bullies are just jealous there’s still a ton of stuff you haven’t tried yet! Live the live you want to live. Don’t let people control you,I have some advice for you to get better and I hope to god you will follow it: you should go to a doctor and make some appointments, get a therapist,find something new to enjoy, you might just bright up someone’s day, here’s what I want you to do. I want you to go to the bathroom everyday and repeat “I am beautiful” in the mirror everyday, maybe you’ll believe it but I know for a fact that you are beautiful deep down in your heart.if you want I can be your friend, I get if you don’t trust me but I’ll do my best to connect to you and help you through this mess.I hope you feel better☺️❤️