deactivated

okay. i have a lot to explain. 
          
          there's no "real" excuse to have not posted on here for so long. i guess it's time to be frank oops.
          
          i've always had trouble completing projects. in fact, i have another account here from like 2012 that i deactivated bc i had no motivation to finish any of my stories. im afraid this account will probably meet the same fate.
          
          again, i have no real excuse for why i've suddenly lost so much interest in updating all of these fanfics. maybe i've changed as a person since i first posted them? has my life changed so much that the life i lived when i posted these fics feels so distant that it all feels alien? i hate to be philosophical like this, but these are honest thoughts that have run through my head.
          
          i can't apologize enough for how much i have let all of you down. i wish i could work up the nerve to just post no matter how much it sucks or how wrong it feels. this account has given me so much solace and joy over the years that i will forever hold dear. when i started this account, i was a sophomore in high school who was so lost and lonely. now, i'm a freshman in college who finally has control and is starting to get better and accept herself for who she is. 
          
          again, i don't know where i would be without this account, and without all of you. but i think it's time for me to move on.
          
          i'm still writing, and you can find a few fics on my ao3 if you're into broadway/musicals lol. and if you wanna dm me i can share my social media links too!
          
          again: i CANNOT thank all of you enough. i'll miss writing on here, and i'll miss all of you. pls keep in touch. 
          
          always; bailey.

y'all asked for original content. i have delivered.
          
          it's ANOTHER poetry book but this one is different i promise lol. the first part is up now and i have so much more to publish but i might space them out. we'll see.

@flovverhead YAS!

how would y'all feel about me posting an original work or two on here? i have some stuff in my drafts that might give y'all something to read while i find motivation to finish these fanfics

okay so it's been another whole year since i've updated and i know that's terrible but y'all im really struggling with these stories idk why i don't have a lot of motivation to continue them but i won't make any rash decisions yet. 
          
          if you want to read more of my writing (i think i've really improved in the past year) i have an ao3 but fair warning i've been writing fanfic for musicals lately so if you're into that check them out! my username there is @/starscribbles.
          
          if you just want to get to know me better i have a tumblr but another fair warning i am very sad on main lol. anyway im @/vvelliwonder there!
          
          i'll keep you guys updated tho and let you know about anything that will happen as far as my stories or this account in general. thank you all so much for being so patient and supportive of me. i know my laziness must be frustrating sometimes, but y'all have stuck around and i really do appreciate that. i hope all of you are doing well. until we meet again! 

Can you please update we will fly away? Can if not at least announce you’re no longer writing it which would be v sad );

NO WAIT I THINK I HAVE AN IDEA Y'ALL

does anyone have ideas/requests for the last update for twenty one shots? i want to include everyone (tyler, josh, jenna, halsey) and im stumped pls help lol

happy holidays, everyone! just a couple updates here!
          
          -i've deleted "the addict's pen", "september", and the original "pons asinorum" like i said i might in my previous message. im deeply sorry if this makes anyone upset, but with the first two stories i didn't have the motivation to finish them
          -i've published the first three chapters of the revised "pons asinorum" so please give that a read! i like this version a lot better tbh haha
          -im on winter break now, and im gonna push myself to update at least once (idk which story yet, we'll see what happens) 
          
          i hope all of y'all are doing well and having a safe holiday! love y'all! 

hey everyone it's been a while lol. senior year is a lot busier than i thought it would be so i really don't have time to write but i have some things im considering.
          
          -deleting "september" bc i have 0 motivation and honestly i don't really like it anymore lol
          -deleting the original "pons asinorum" and posting what i have so far of the revised version (it's three chapters)
          -deleting "the addict's pen" bc playwriting is freaking hard and it honestly kinda sucks lol
          
          if any of you have major problems with me deleting these stories pm me and i might give the story to someone else or something? idk i'll figure something out lol.
          
          but im sorry y'all for being so unmotivated and lazy lol