@flowerduty
I’m honestly scared to think about you. I’m scared that one day I’ll suddenly find myself unable to move on, stuck remembering all the things that hurt. I still love you just like I did yesterday, and I know I’ll probably still love you tomorrow too. I’m sorry for having to distance myself and disappear. Maybe this really is for the best.
happy birthday rain
bila psl kamu terdetik kt hati. trus anxious distress tu dtg. serabuk la nak kawal dengn sesak nafas dengn tngn shaking. tolong la jngn muncul dlm fikiran walaupun sekali
wtf... 23.8.25 was diagnosed mdd with psychotic features and anxious distress. 4.6.26 tambah diagnosed borderline personality disorder (BPD)
my life so fuckup 2 diagnosed in 1 year. :(
saya maafkan awak. hiduplah sebaik mungkin mydear rains. semoga kita tidak akan berjumpa lagi walau disegala kemungkinan. i loveyou. and thats why i let u go. see you when i see you love.
macam bodo la aku ni.. aku tak tahu la aku ni cepat sejuk btul dengn si bongok tu.. bru cht stu hri aku boleh layan dia mcm biase and mcm lupa apa dia buat.. aku tak maafkan dia tapi aku elok je layan dia mcm biase. like wtf mannnnnn.. mmng bodo aku ni
dia munculkan diri dia balik. dia minta maaf. dengn minta maaf tu boleh ke ubah semua bnde? dh terlanjur benci. sebb dia la punca aku kene mkn ubat psy. kalau dengn minta maaf boleh ubah semuanya app 2 kali sebulan betukr ii ubat..side effect ubat lagi. kalau boleh ubah bru minta maaf. tp tkkn berubah right. aku benci kau. aku menyesal cintakan kau 7 thun.
ngl i kdng ii teringt dekt dia. tp ingt balik apa dia ckp dekt i. i benci gila dekt dia. avoidant bukan alasan untuk dia sakitkan i. dia redflag.. i je yg bengong cintakan org redflag 7 thun
i tak boleh giveup.. i akan mulakan hidup baru i. langkah demi langkah. i takkn biarkan kata ii dia buat i jtuh and hidup dlm kemurungan.
Everything’s been getting better after she left. Honestly, sometimes I still feel hurt because I always imagined her being there through every part of my journey. So many things happened to me. the highs, the lows and she was the person I wanted beside me through all of it. But now, I hate her. I hope our paths never cross again. Still, I hope she’s happy with the one she chose. Maybe I was always just something small in her heart. Maybe I was never really there at all.