fluffygirl1000

Somedays I wonder why I even try. Why do I talk when no one listens. Why do I cry when no one sees. These are the things I ask when I think there’s no point in hiding. But hey who cares.

fluffygirl1000

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Heyo, it’s me again I’m back to complain about dumb shit and to inform you people about a plan I have. So first my complaint I am a dumb mother fucker who read a date wrong on one of my school assignments. Normally that would be fine he’ll I’d probably say screw it and not even attempt to do it. But no this is an assignment for my college cours and not the first one I have missed this week. So now I have like 4-5 assignments I have to do tomorrow and I have to go to church. So ya I’m a little stressed. I know you’re going to say this “ then why aren’t you doing these assignments” because I’m tired and I have depression and anxiety and just looking at it makes me feel sick and I just don’t want too do what I did like a week ago. So yup I’m just screwed. In other news I will be trying to start writing again soon. I know shocking. I want to start my own personal book, but I already have an important fan fiction that is dear to my heart. That have barely even started (this is not the right way to write this). So I want some input from you guys. Do you want me to continue with my older stories or start a new one. Or I could try both but that would take longer and would mean I would have to sacrifice something else. Anyways that is all I got for you tonight. I hope you have or have had a wonderful day. Good bye

fluffygirl1000

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Hey so I know probably no body cares, and like no one will read this so I’m going to rant about my depressive thoughts so ya. You can ignore this I’m just venting because I’m an idiot yay. 
          
          So I was just getting ready to go to sleep when my dad come knocking (it’s fine I’m just dumb.) . He yells at me for still being up and not doing my chores and such, which I definitely deserved. But it just made me think about how much of a shit daughter I am and that I’m so foolish to think I even deserve to be here. So ya that the first thought I had ha. The next is about school.
          
          So I’m a big procrastinator if you haven’t noticed and well I have depression and social anxiety so when I say I’m behind because I see no point in school it means I literally see no future where I’m alive and am a healthy adult. So I’m just sitting trying to find a reason to even start on half my assignments I’m Delhi do for. Don’t get me started on how much pressure my mom puts on me because I’m the golden academic child that gets good grades normally. It’s just not worth it anymore. I honestly hope no one I know sees this so ya. I’m done with this. Not even going to check if it makes any sense. So ya have a nice night I’m going to go cry. 
          Hope you have a nice day tomorrow bye...

fluffygirl1000

I literally put down my the iPad to go to bed because I was feeling a little better. And almost instantly I go back into my depressive thought process. WTF!
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