@flummerry Trust me I wasn't always like this. Used to a pessimist once, then I realized that I'm only making myself sad and getting worried. Now I always feel carefree and happy. I have to than God for that. He never left me even when I rejected him and hated going to church because of the people. But now I realize that I shouldn't care about what people and not fall for their manipulation. I should live for what I believe in and walk in God's loving ways. This makes me happy and I want everyone to be happy by forgetting all the negative things in the world for just a moment. And if you believe then have faith in God. I'm glad I have my faith in God again. That's what keeps me going. Prayer is a powerful thing