i have like this intense NEED to write and create something but my writing brain is like "nah i'm good" and i'm like "no you don't understand, i NEED to write" and my writing brain is like "oh did you say that you don't want the ability to read anymore?" and i'm like "UH FCKIN NO" and my writing brain is like "alrighty, done and done. u can now stare at a sentence for 20 mins and have no idea what you're reading or what it means. congrats."
so that's how my day's going.