Wow, I just realized that my best friend isn't my best friend. He's actually a very toxic.He does nothing but make me feel bad about myself. He said girls who wear bangs are ugly. So, I stopped wearing my bangs out. He said that I was the most disappointing person he'd ever seen. So, I always tried to change myself, so I wouldn't be a disappointment. He's also very, very racist. I had the biggest crush on him for so long. And, when I asked him out, he rejected me bc I'm black. I was so hurt. I cried the entire Christmas break. I was miserable bc it was my "friend" who'd hurt me. It's sad that it's taken me 2 years to realize the toxicity of our "friendship"
And now I don't know how to cut him out of my life. If I tell him I don't wanna be his friend anymore, he'll probably start a rumor about me. I have a horrible habit of becoming friends with toxic people-