freecluck
❝ i'm sorry you expected me to cry. i'll never shed tears for any person on this earth, not after the people who were suppose to care about me abandoned us so carelessly. my brother would be the only one worthy of my tears. or anyone i call family i suppose, but theres not many to that word. ❞ this literally being about katsukichi having like emotional constipation because of ging abandoning both of them at such a young age. how that was the last time they let themselves cry, the embarrassment they most likely felt from the confusion on their younger brothers face. his questions constantly filling their mind but they had no answers for him, or themselves. only more questions. this could be directed at chrollo in the near future or anyone in general, maybe the troupe members ( feitan if he's threatening or harming them ), it's all situational. and this isn't pride, fear isn't a thing they allow themselves to have. it's practically impossible for them anyhow but it's more so about physically not being able to. not allowing yourself that heartbreak again. for someone to hurt you so deeply that you'd waste a breath spilling tears, when what you deserve is to hold your head high and smile if you're able to. ( could also be used towards giving estelle a pep talk about leaving and not feeling bad about looking out for herself. cause in the end, who looks out for you...more than you? )
freecluck
im probably gonna have a lot of these yap threads that start randomly as paragraphs and possibly either get left to sit and not add more or have plenty of other character stuff added under it. freecs kids, why must you bare such a terrible weight due to your fathers negligence and idiocy?
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