there’s always this thing that happens to me everytime i date someone.
i date them for a while and yes, i appreciate the fact that they were with me but there always comes a point where the threshold level for me to be with that person always happen. maybe it’s bc the fact that i can’t forget what happened during our relationship. maybe i loved them while we were together but the moment i reached a point where i just can’t take it anymore, i lose all interest and start to think, “was what i felt during those years love or just to keep myself from being lonely?”
maybe it’s bc my first relationship felt so genuine and pure and had all my firsts, that i don’t feel anything new with my other relationships?? it’s all repeats of my first times. is something wrong with me ? idek