(1/2)update you might wanna read :)
oh. my god. i found my old password for this account and all i have to say is wow. 2016-2017 was a crazy time for me. i read through all of my old drafts and stuff that, just about four years ago, was unnecessarily popular, and i just think it's really crazy looking back from where i am now. at that time, i had so much support and engagement on my stuff when it was posted, specifically from the stupid little "ask or dare" book i published, that led to making so many friends that i, unfortunately, ended up eventually losing touch with. at this point in my life, i'm now a 16-year-old sophomore in high school and it's so humbling looking back to little middle school me, exploring writing for the first time and gaining so much support from some amazing people on some terrible and frankly embarrassing writing. regardless of its quality, this website marked a huge chapter of my life that, realizing now, is just so incredible to me.
there's a lot going on for me right now. at this point, i'm really having to decide the path i want to take in my life. school and social settings are getting more and more stressful and complicated, and everything is getting significantly tougher. i'm going through a super tough break up, which is also doing its part to make everything just a little too much to bear and generally turning everything sour.
i've grown up a lot since the last time i've posted anything and it's such an overpowering feeling of nostalgia looking back on all this. thank you so much to everyone that supported me in my growth, all of the friends i made, and everyone who's still around today that took the time to read my junk while it was up a few years ago. though i usually look back on this account with cringe and distaste, i'm now seeing this through a lens of growth, development, and maturity. i've grown up so much and made so much progress from where i once was and it makes me feel very proud now that i'm finally realizing it.
