SilverGeckos

Hey guysss, I’m back! 
          Sorry that took so long! I had a sleepover, a few parties, vacation, etc. also, apparently sleeping 18 hours a day and refusing all food is NOT normal. So uh, yeah now we gotta go find out if I need my thyroid checked or if I have meningitis B. Also need my Jaw worked on because it’s been clicking for two years. My eyes are also getting worse, to the point where I’m basically blind without my glasses, and even those are beginning to fail me. One of my legs hurts to put pressure on too! Dude, people call me a hypochondriac, then I go to the doctor and hey! Guess what? You have pneumonia and we need blood testing because you more than likely have low iron and low zinc! Not to mention you still haven’t gone to your autism testing and still need to find a way to cope with that PTSD we suspect you (more than likely) have!
          
          God, I’m atheist but legit, why? Can you give me like, 5 days without medical problems?! Give me a dang break. I got parties to go to and siblings to harass. Geez  

I just found out technoblade has passed away following his battle with cancer. I need a break, he was one of my favorite YouTubers and an amazing person and Idk what to even say. RIP Alex aka technoblade. 

You know what? German, English, Toki Pona? Not enough. Time to learn Romanian so I can read more Resident Evil: Village fanfiction.

 #newlysinglecheckkkk
          I feel so ✨free ✨

Just found out my boyfriend was cheating on my with a friend of mine. It was a year ago, and soon after, we broke up. Still not over him at all. I’m still upset with the girl and want to confront her. I know I shouldn’t, I just can’t help but feel so hurt. I mean- I tried ranting to my friends and they just told me, “*my name*…that stuff happened last year, i don’t think she cares at this point” and I guess I just expected sympathy? I mean- it hurt like hell to hear that from someone so close. I don’t really know what I’m expecting. Just need to rant.

Hey guys, so I'm partially back on wattpad. Still kinda in a rough place but I'll try to update, no promises I won't go offline again at some point though :)

Hey uh, so just got back from a therapy appointment. Turns out the depression is back and the anxiety is worse so I’ll be trying out a new prescription. She said it may not affect me since I’m basically immune to every dose of antidepressants and ADHD medication possible. 
          
          Today I was extremely happy when I walked into school because mom and I didn’t fight at all. Then I got confident because a kid walked up to me and was in disbelief when his friend mentioned the company my family owned, *insert our company name because I’m not giving away my identity*, so I was feeling pretty proud. 
          
          Then English class happened and we were discussing Lord Of The Flies. I was trying to discuss why I saw Ralph as the bad guy and sympathized with Jack and Simon. The teacher (who I always saw as a parental figure because she’s so kind) raised her voice and began ranting about why Jack wasn’t a good guy. Then she told me to chill about the topic and the entire class joined in saying “yeah, it’s annoying” and “we legit don’t care” and it just hurt so badly.
           I kinda got quiet (which I’m usually the class clown and excited) and I guess they realized they went a bit far because afterwards I was called to the teachers desk and she apologized. I said it was okay, I just didn’t know I was annoying people that much. When they all originally began saying “we don’t care” and such, my mind just immediately started screaming, “kill yourself, kill yourself, kill yourself…” so I may be taking a break for awhile or posting rapidly. I don’t really know anymore. Sorry.

Okay- so-
          I am a very lonely human being, and I really, really want/need a dog. Unfortunately my mom is allergic and I cant keep one at my grandmother because her dog from years ago, Buddy the Great Dane, was my best friend and when he died it broke us, I'm ready for another dog but she isnt. That is why I need yours. 
          
          What I'm proposing is, I'll dm you my number, and I want to share custody of your dog. I will pay child support in dog treats and just so you know, I got money and WILL be only buying custom bakery dog treats for your dog. I am desperate. All I want is facetime on the weekend with the dog. I'm dead ass serious and desperate. I can have the treats shipped to your local PO or wherever needed. I don't care what the dog looks like (pitbulls are NOT bad dogs) and all I want is FaceTime with them, please, I am desperate.

Tell me you live in America without telling me you live in America: Well I just heard a pop sound (some monster energy that exploded) and the entire class shot up and one kid dashed to lock the door while everyone else froze listening for more pops. I legit felt the color drain from my face and was looking for safe exits.... yeah. Legit thought I was about to die lol

Sorry I've been gone so long everyone, my uncle Salvador died from agent orange poisoning and we had a military funeral, then my step mom and dad decided to officiate the divorce, and now my great grandmother is dying in the hospital, so everything has kinda gone to shit. No worries though, I'll post again soon, sorry for the delay!!