fruitofthegoon

You have good taste

About the boy I was talking about in March: 
          We've been dating since April, but there have been some problems since I got back from my trip to London. 
           Big problems, on his part, that I don't think I can just let go. 
          He can be really inconsiderate (cancelling plans an hour after we were supposed to meet, showing up hours late without calling or texting, etc.), and is almost completely closed-off emotionally. He shuts me out, won't share what he's feeling, and that really bothers me.
           I tried bringing the subject up with him over text, and he just straight up refused to have the conversation. He's been ignoring me because of it, I think. 
          
          My mum says we should break-up, because he's not making me happy.
           
          But there's still a big part of me that wants this to work, and I'm just so, so confused and hurt and hopeful. Our relationship is still so new, I just can't help wanting to give us a chance. 

New username lost the pw to the other

So. I have a MASSIVE crush on this boy, and I am absolutely utterly MISERABLE. We text everyday, but ever since we went on a date I've been getting the feeling he's distancing himself from me/ignoring me. And I HATE being ignored. It plays into some of my deepest insecurities, and I've even told him so. He's been giving me so many mixed signals, I can't wait for these feelings to go away. I don't think I can handle this level of intensity for very much longer. It's brutal. 

I wish Webtoon had a LGBTQ+ genre. Would make finding quality BL waaaay easier. Also their new policy is stupid, I want my smut back. 

I've been feeling incredibly and intolerably bored, lately. And isolated. It's horrible. I've been reaching out to friends, but it feels almost. . . . Hopeless. I'm exhausted, but the last thing I want to do is go home. 

I REALLY REALLY NEED MORE OMAR/ANDER AND GUZMAN/NADIA FANFICTIONS (NETFLIX'S ELITE) IN MY LIFE, PLEASE, THERE ARE ONLY 59 TOTAL ON AO3 AND I'VE READ ALL OF THEM, EVEN THE ONES THAT AREN'T IN ENGLISH 
          I'VE LITERALLY SPENT ALL MORNING ON TUMBLR, LOOKING AT GIFS AND STUFF 
          I DON'T EVEN HAVE A TUMBLR ACCOUNT 
          HeLp mE
          
          
          

Two-day shipping is a big-fat LIE 

Wow. So I just started Netflix's new teen drama series "Elite" (it was actually my sister, I just happened to be in the room at the time)
          And holy mother of Jesus Horatio Christ, 
          MY HEART HURTS. 
          Why can't I be a sinfully-attractive and incredibly interesting twenty-something pretending to be a rich 16 year old student at a fancy school with other sinfully-attractive and incredibly interesting twenty-somethings also pretending to be rich 16 year olds? Life isn't fair. 
          But also, like, I know my heart would nOt be able to handle that much hardcore-romance and drama. I'd be dead within the first 10 minutes. 
          
          I've got pretty high-standards when it comes to what I watch (People tell me I should be a movie/t.v. critic 'cause I get so passionate about literally whatever's on the screen that I start ranting and raving and occasionally my mum has to send me out of the room), and I CAN'T STAND most teen dramas (because the characters are stupid, do petty and vindictive things for no reason at all, and everything is just so implausible it's not even funny. Just sad.)(Veronica Mars was A++ tho), But "Elite" is actually really good. It takes all those stereotypical and superficial teen-tropes and gives it a twist. It has actual depth, and that is a bloody hard thing to find on TV these days.  
          Also
          Nadia is smooth as fuck, I wish I had half of her game. Omar and Ander are so amazing I will RAGE if they don't end up together *knock on wood* y'all will hear about it (so future spoil alert) 
          
          THE END. 
          
          

I love danny devito