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♫ twin - jennie
just so yk... i blinked more than 5 times to assure myself that it’s real and i was definitely not seeing things.
grabe... ever since that day, i occasionally visit with trembling hands and anxious heart. i was so scared that one day, it will vanish. any second pwede syang mawala—the worst nightmare that would really really break my heart. this is where our friendship started. this silly app? it’s our soul, our lifeline—the only thing that connects us after what happened. i can’t imagine the pain i have to go through kung nangyari nga yon.
although i read it late, (like literally, i just saw it now..) i felt— idk tbh... relieved? happy? i don't think there’s an exact word to describe the surge of emotions i felt all at once upon reading the message. because never did i expect to see something like that. it was something that i could only hope for—silently... achingly...
fuckingnarly
that’s why until now, despite all my fears and anxiety, i really hope that you’ll come back to me despite everything that happened. i know... reconciliation wasn’t your goal, but i want you to remember that i have my arms, gladly opened as i wait for you no matter how long it takes. because if the day suddenly comes and you decide to work things out, i am confident to say that this can still be fixed, no matter how broken it is right now.
i don't want to force things lalo na kung one-sided lang naman. kaya whatever your decision is, i wish you nothing but the best in life too. you deserve everything. i hope that through this silly yet genuine way, we both eased our hearts and minds that had been carrying a lot.
apology accepted. i love you always, my twin, my best friend, the loml. no matter how many "friends" enter my life, no one compares to you. you’re the only person i see as one. so no goodbyes pls, kahit dito manlang jusq
with still the same love,
your og, 3racharacha (or kung anong
username mo man ako naabutan)
fuckingnarly
alam mo ba, i felt all stages of grief (except for one) throughout the past year. but what really stood out among them is anger—not because it was overflowing, but because it was only a little. my love for you was soooo damn strong it makes the anger subside.
tbh, i kept asking... "bakit ganon lang kadali para sayo? bakit kaya mong sayangin yung 6 years? bakit kaya mo ’kong iwan? am i the only one who truly valued our friendship?" but then i remembered, you tried pushing me away before too—not just once, not just twice.
i can still vividly recall what you said along the lines of "baka hindi talaga para sakin yung mga kaibi-kaibigan na yan" but i proved you wrong (i did, didn’t i?). no matter how many times you tried pushing me away, i stayed. and you, too, would always come back.