fyheulwen

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fyheulwen

update (tho no one asked for it and no one will read) :
          
          i went to the therapist for the first time this morning for the first session/ appointment.
          
          well, first of all, IT WAS SO COLD I WAS FREEZING. second of all, i like that my doctor is a woman and non muslim because she seems non judgemental and if i told her about my religious concern, she won't judge me (inshallah). third of all, i feel like the conversation with her wasn't really organized, our conversation was overlapped (?)... when i talk, she talk too and i couldn't get in detail about what i feel and what i went through. fourth of all, when she asked me something and i answered with "i don't know" she doesn't accept my answers (she wasn't being mean, she make it seems nice) and i understand that she's tryna do her job BUT MISS I'M TRYING, I REALLY DON'T KNOW . fifth and perhaps the last, I don't understand what she's saying, i don't know what kinda disorder or mental illness i have, but based on what i understand i perhaps have a few mental illness...? idk. oso, she thought that my problems are mainly about A (something but i don't rlly wanna say wht it is) but i felt like my problems are mainly about my mindset but yea idk
          
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          27/12/2023