Gao Tu

Sistaaaar missing you smmmmmmmm
          Not just your shaotu ff but you too, it's been soooooo long since u posted smthng , u mentioned your writers block last time   , I understand ur situation,  sending u wishes to get yr spark back real soon.
          
          But apart from that, how are you? And how's life been ?

Author nim please don't be hard on yourself I really like your style of writing it gives full explanation it satisfy me as a reader I really wish I could write like you it's okay if we get stuck sometimes but don't give up Author nim you can do it I am waiting for upcoming chapters take care  Author nim ✨️

It's my first time posting something like this. My readers from old fanfic know I'm really slow and I get stuck a lot. I've been trying to write rewritten end of ShaoyouTu from September 1 and published it I think in middle of October (when I could only write 2 chapters because I knew I wouldn't be able to finish it if I didn't push myself) but November is already here and I was able to write only 6 chapters. I'm extremely sorry for the late uploads I don't know what to say.  Like the process of writing gets me stuck too much even if I have the whole story ready in my mind.
          
          The same goes for my LangTu what if series. Though it's all individual one shot stories so I don't kinda need to update it every week but I know I've got you all hang up on the cliffhangers. I've habit of leaving my chapters or part in cliffhangs ( and I'm sorry for that ) but I can't help myself.
          
          I should've planned everything from the start. I'll learn from my mistake and will only publish any other story (if I write) after at least having 10 chapters ready. 
          
          I'm even embarrassed to reply to my comments cuz even I have no idea when I'll be able to write and upload (I'm unemployed btw). I don't think I'm fit to write  I even have my own novel stuck for 3 years that'll never even reach end (I think).
          
          Please be kind to me  even if you feel like punching me. 
          
          Thank you loves,
          
          Yours
          
          -maya

due to some issues i could not reply back to your reply in your ff ,but 
          
          LITERALLY THANK YOU SO SO MUCH like I can't explain in words how safe ,seen and heard I felt when u replied back.
          It really means a lot .
          Thank you so much for for support and yk  altho my schedule is tight but I somehow managed to watch the Finale of ABO desire and 
          I wish I nvr watched it .
          With the actors posting their farewell messages to their characters...it really is the end I think.. 
          Yes I'm very happy with our 1st cp ,but 2nd cp just broke my heart. It's like when someone makes u believe in love and them shatters everything. Now nothing feels real. They healed my heart and broke it again. I'm truly disappointed for our 2nd cps ending..had I not found out your channel ,had I not read the novel , I would have been wayyyyyyy more broken now ,like they destroyed all the character development and arc Wenlang had , and that hug , it just felt...cruel for my soul. I know they were just in extra chps but then NJ should not have introduced ABO Desire as having 4 leads... I truly truly hoped for atleast a beautiful closure for our 2nd cp but it was only a wishful thought.in the novel they still showed a happy ending! With Ma Heng , Song Fei Fei and that car scene and that scene when Lele wonders if He has to change his name from Gao Lele to Shen Lele. 
          I'm really .....idk what to say...since yesterday I have been crying and talking to myself as if I'm a mad person..then seeing your vedio here, I cried more , it's like idk what to say... 
          I'm frustrated..because  ..I can't even say what's wrong when ppl are asking me as what will I even say?! They would say that " they are just fictional!" And ykw THATS WHY IT HURTS SO DAMN MUCH, CUZ REAL LIFE IS ALREADY CRUEL AND NOW U TAKE AWAY EVERYTHING FROM ME?! EVEN THE COUPLE WHO HEALED ME, DESTROYING THEIR DEVELOPMENT IN SECONDS.