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Life update since that last pinned status! I went to hospital and recovered from my Ed! that boyfriend broke up with me soon after and I dated another for not long before we broke up and now been single for a bit!! I quit those hard drugs and am now on natural shit.. POTTTTTTT!!!!! I've got a roommate, some new friends and am doing a lot better!! hopefully all the sweet people in this device are doing well!!

Mm that never happened and now I'm an anorexic drug addict who broke up with my ex GF and now I have a boyfriend  

Hello my like 13 children, I am back after one long year! Just reading old stories and stuffs! Though I am no longer a DSMP fan, my passion for writing will continue!! If you are all still here look out for some different story's, about real characters, OCS, and real life experiences! I hope I can still keep you all entertain as I once have! 

I'd just like to clarify, I said in my last post that allegations were one thing and the slur was a whole other thing, what I meant was that they were proven faulse. The George situation I've always been ignorant about because I've been struggling, that isn't an excuse I can use anymore because I don't watch him often so it's no longer a coping mechanism so there's no reason for me to support him. Also what I meant by he shouldn't have used it like that is that he used it in the wrong content. There's a time and a place. 

Decided to just unpublished my book instead because I have learning difficulties and the fact I wrote that much is insane :>

So... This is fucking insane! probably gonna ditch the dsmp. Allegations are one thing, saying a slur is a whole other thing. And this all happened right as I was getting back into the dsmp which sucks. Ik there's the argument that "he can use that slur" but using it towards other people is a way those words should never be used. I'm neurodivergent but I don't go around saying ableist slurs. I'll be keeping this account and I'll probably still read my fav fics but think of the characters as other people because I've read some beautiful books on here :> I'll also be deleting my book as I just can't stand these people anymore. I wish this hadn't happened, and I wish I'd never found these content creators in the first place but unfortunately I can't go back in time and change that. I'd just like to say somewhere in my heart I'll love the people I thought they were and I'll think back on how their videos have helped me. I know this is dramatic but honestly it's a final straw, as someone who talks about slurs, SA, abuse, women's rights and more, continuing to watch these people would go against everything I stand for. Anyways if you still support them no hard feelings, if you're going through stuff and these creators are helping you it's okay to sometimes be ignorant. If you are going through things and want to reach out I'm more than happy to talk! I love all the friends I've made through this fandom :> anyways idk how to end this T^T baii 

I'M STARTING TO READ DNF AGAIN Y'ALL I REALLY HOPE THAT IT'S NOT JUST A SHORT THING BECAUSE MY MUMS STILL PAYING FOR WATTPAD PREMIUM 

I love my cd player it's my child

Yikes

Falling out of the dsmp fandom is actually breaking my heart