I'm reading my church mates messages to me after quitting church, I'm sad for leaving these people but I won't respond to them for now. Being in a church that doesn't share my beliefs is so tough, repressing my feelings and thoughts, can't even share my real political opinion.
Another episode of guilt and shame washing over me. I'm so stupid for calling her names and I didn't know that she knew that. Ahh I want to say sorry but I don't want to make it awkward.
I FEEL LIKE PUKING, I MADE SOMEONE FEEL BAD ABOUT THEIRSELF. I'M SORRY FOR BLOCKING YOU, I DON'T KNOW THE REASON WHY I BLOCKED YOU BUT I GUESS ITS FOR MY OWN GOOD.
I really feel bad
People won't recognize your efforts. They will be happy receiving something from you, they will flex it the moment they receive it, but they will forget it in time.