geonmaetz
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A long ahh rant session
I know it's so early but I'm in my last year as a teenager and I have no freaking clue what made me to write this thing. Anyways, I was just doomscrolling as usual on Twitter(I refuse to call it as X) this day and happened to bump into a post made by my old friend of mine and mentioned about moving on and it suddenly hit me that both of us aren't those stupid kids anymore who'd fight over bout who'll be the on to get noticed from their favorite artists and laughing at our jokes. Also, after that I began scrolling deep into those old posts and gosh, i was definitely dumb and cringe but at the same time I had fun. It's been 7 full years since I got into kpop, online communities and other interests and I've noticed how much I evolved into something that can be called as a "human"???. Eventhough I miss those people and would be still yearning for that phase to come back, there are other things that I gotta focus on because, at some point it's useless to beg those people to make a comeback in our lives again(I'm making random ahh comments to keep those sentences sound sane).
Anyways 7 years in, I managed to overcome(?) My social anxiety, though I can't let go of that low self esteem and inferiority complex, actually found myself enjoying taking photos and videos of things around me. Started letting people go and consider them as a part of my so called "life lessons". I've started exploring both myself and my surroundings that my 13 years old self would fight for. I still miss people but that's okay. I took psychology as my major despite my mom's disapproval and now I'm thriving with whatever the shit that'd hit me to the point of discontinuation from that entire course. Started looking for the next thing I'm gonna pursue in the future(also the country too)
Anyways, hope the following years would be good (atleast with accessible water and food) and let's see what 19 holds for me
Sincerely,
Kie.
