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I just read one of my drafts and my time is playing and y'all? Why haven't I written this yet? Honestly it's such a good plot maybe a bit complex but good. If I can write it while making sure the concept is properly explained and conveyed it could be a good book. Wow I'm shocked I don't even remember writing it
Helloooo it's me again. Istg this is like a diary or smth cos I post so randomly and always rant about how depressed I am. But the world is currently in a time of crisis with a global virus and so many conspiracies. I hope everyone is staying safe and using their time at home wisely. I've been sleeping way too much but I'm planning a schedule (or trying to atleast), tidying my room properly for the first time in I think 5 years, hoping to improve my artwork and possibly writing as well as preparing for my transition to further education. I also hope to lose weight and glow up because my health is also a concern and has been for a long time now but I haven't been able to lose a significant amount of weight to be healthier. I wish for everyone's safety and please stay inside! Everyone complains about wanting to be at home all the time and now we actually have to we're getting sick of it haha but yes I pray that this all passes over soon so we can go back to our friends and families, pay our respects to the ones who have been lost and support those who have suffered.
Stay safe,
E
I spew out a lot of bullshit don't I
Should I return to wattpad? I decided to do twitter aus but I really miss writing longer stuff. Desire wasn't the most maturely written story and I hope to rewrite it someday. I think I have depression but I'm not a psychologist (not yet at least) so I can't really diagnose myself with such a serious issue. I'm also kinda afraid of going to a doctor because I'm not sure what sort of response I'd get but I'll go eventually I guess. It's not too bad these days. I sit in front of my window, the urge to jump out of has weakened. I don't cry as much either. It's rather strange really. I've sort of become numb to emotion. I still feel emotions of course - I am human - but it's hard to explain. I don't feel them as well as I once did? I've just dumped all this bullshit here so I'll shut up but I will probably be writing something soon - it'll keep me sane :}
It's me again. I swear I only ever come here and say something when I feel like shit haha. But I have exams for the next month yay. I've decided to write some short stories to keep myself sane and I'm currently working on aus for my twitter so please go ahead and check out my account if you would like to read them. Or I could copy them to here, just ask! Hope everyone's in a better mindset than I am.
As you can tell, I'm alive. I did give up. But I decided not to give up my life or my feelings. I decided to give up as much of my self hatred as possible. Hating myself lead to hating anyone and everyone else as well as a lot of mental and emotional difficulties. Not to mention the anxiety I never had before. I used to be quite the confident child - everyone knew me as bossy or stubborn but also friendly and caring. High school broke me. I kinda feel like writing a story about myself. God that sounds so narcissistic but I just want my story to be heard. I want people to know what I went through and be able to understand that they're not alone. Because even when you know someone is going through a similar situation as you - you will always feel alone. Because your mind plays with you. It convinces you that no one is there and makes you blind and deaf and numb to your surroundings. It makes you suffer.
Anyone miss me? I'm working on editing and my art atm. Maybe I'll start posting chapters again but idk cos I have extremely important exams in a week.
I'm gonna give up
Wow I haven't been on wattpad in like 2 weeks
Where do we go when we fall asleep?
Where will I go if I jumped out the window?