Nico

none of you are active but it's been like 5 years and I'm an adult now and shit but. 
          
          for starters, therapy is good  sorry y'all had to put up with me going through some shit as a kid, this was my only social media and outlet for a good while back in the day and I didn't have much of a support system. a lot of what I said and did wasn't okay, but I greatly appreciate the patience and kindness I was shown despite it. 
          
          also might rework river for fun. if any of you remember what that is, I'm so sorry, but the entire concept of it could def be worth the effort. I'll probably post it on ao3 though, I hate this place so bad these days. 

Y'all remember River? Cuz I just went through it and,, what the fuck was I thinking with that lmao-

I'm alive I guess. 

how do you politely tell someone you want them to kiss you until you can't fucking breathe?

I feel like everyone I cared about has forgotten me,  hates me,  or is starting to hate me and it makes me feel so alone,  and small,  and helpless and all I can do is cry. 
          Send help or send death

I wanna fucking cry 

Sad?
          Happy?
          I dont fucking know.
          Please just shoot me and let me die.

So I'm dating some1 now.
          I'm happy as fuck.
          

I hate the fact that it feels like everyone that I cared about in the past has completely disappeared from my life

Existing fucking sucks but at least I have memes