I keep accidentally deleting the post before I post it and having to rewrite the whole thing but I have been scared to come back and despite thinking about it every day, I haven’t opened this app in months.
I disappointed people and haven’t spoken to my friends in months, only leaning on my family and partner financially and socially cause I have been too scared to let anyone know how much I’m struggling with adjusting to life now that my chemical imbalances are imbalancing like hell;;;;
I cant work, I cant write, I cant feel comfort in my usual routine. Nothing.
A few weeks ago, new information came to my surroundings and I found out I may have a new diagnosis, which is scary and exciting. Bipolar 2. Scary cause it’s something that’ll be there forever and needs medication if I cannot balance my life on my own, but exciting cause there’s help in that and with therapy I’ll be able to feel more whole in how I have been wanting to change.
It’ll take time but I’ll keep writing, drawing, making music, everything that gives me peace… it’ll just take much longer than I ever thought before I can post again to keep the stress away so I don’t end up hurting myself in the process.
THANK YOU for 53k, 10k, and 5k on my writing. I love you all, especially you Cotty if you’re still here <3333
I’ll be back! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
As always, MUCH LOVE AND STAY BLESSED