﹡ ᵗᵉˡᵉᵖᵃᵗʰⁱᶜ ᵈʳᵉᵃᵐ ᵐᵃⁿⁱᵖᵘˡᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ ﹕ ᵗʰᵉ ᵃᵇⁱˡⁱᵗʸ ᵗᵒ ᵐᵃⁿⁱᵖᵘˡᵃᵗᵉ ᵒⁿᵉ'ˢ ᵈʳᵉᵃᵐˢ.
{ carrie is no longer new to this.
she no longer needs blindfolds nor complete deprivation, rather prefers them. she no longer feels the curiosity to push herself to find her own answers, the need to discover what lies behind her own doors. what she needs is herself, determination, silence, and currently ?? the presence of her comatose son to drive both of those up the wall.
with both her husband and daughter gone, estrella practically being extracted before she worried herself into a coma, the silence is enough.
nightmares are a familial curse by now. years ago, carrie saw enough in robin's mind to know how easily comatose states can breed an influx of nightmares, now serving a potential double the ones her son already has. perhaps she swore it off. perhaps she had convinced herself that it was once too invasive. but not anymore.
cosmo's mindscape is a different world. colors fade and brighten in sync with each other, sounds of memories past dancing in the spaces around. he may very well be in here -- if he is like her in this way, that is not completely out of the question.
she's curious to peek in corners now, watching unfoldings of recent family christmases and search for the happiest one. if there is a terror in here, she is pushing it away. protecting him is her duty. by god, she's going to do it right. }
