glitxhed-bean
i hate... myself because i know that i'm a disappointment to everyone.
glitxhed-bean
glitxhed-bean
i hate that my heart can sink so much that it hurts i hate that that stupid mean voices in my mind won't shut up i hate that i have traits of ptsd,depression, social anxiety and ed. i hate that somebody choose to make me feel like im an idiot when im saying the truth i hate that I'll never be good enough i hate that when I'm happy for once someone/something chooses to make me sad again i hate that my social anxiety is so bad that i have trouble talking to people irl and on the phone i hate that my ptsd gets easily triggered by being yelled at or being told something in a stern-ish voice
glitxhed-bean
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i'm just pointing this out, i'm never ever using discord again,thanks to an asshole ink i met, he treated me like SHIT,CALLED ME A TRANSTRENDER AND CALLED ME BY THR PRONOUNS I DO NOT USE, MADE ME LOSE FRIENDS ON DISCORD. THIS IS LITERALLY WHY I TRUST NO ONE BC I KNOW THEY'LL ALL BETRAY ME AT SOME POINT AND I PUSH PEOPLE AWAY BC IM BLOODLY GOD DAMN SCARED OF WHAT THEY THINK OF ME- sorry im just stress bc my mind decides to replay a bad memory, like.. they only replay bad memories so i feel like more shit bout my self and that i'll never be valid.. (vent)
glitxhed-bean
im feeling very high dysphoric rn (as in body and gender dysphoric) ;v;..
StayHopeFull
@glitched-destroyer sad. im gonna cry when halloween comes around because i have to wear a dress and get my hair braided.
glitxhed-bean
im just talking randomly now but lots but thats one of my traits as in i talk alot.
rudy_ren
@glitched-destroyer It’s okay I like listening to other people talk, even if they’re ranting :)
glitxhed-bean
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also, i remember one time i had a panic attack,, like.. i was crying and breathing very very heavy
also, my chest sort of hurts and im waiting till i have a binder and my mind is constantly reminding you of someone who thinks that your a 'transtrender' & shit.. that 'someone' btw is an ink.
glitxhed-bean
@glitched-destroyer its okay,, but most of my life was filled with emotional abuse and yelling, thanks to yelling tho that i got ptsd traits
glitxhed-bean
@Positive_Dreaming i have childhood trauma so that to btw- and i hqve the traits of ptsd,,
glitxhed-bean
im still feeling very gender & body dysphoric rn but not alot but yeah i still feel it- h
glitxhed-bean
aaaaaaaaaaa- (idk what to do f uc k)
glitxhed-bean
i feel like im having like 1 million depressive episodes but like.. no one cares bout it heh,, probably because i don't matter and sorry for seeming sad but i know that i don't matter and that i'm a mistake,,
glitxhed-bean
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