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to whoever's left on here, here's a brief rundown of what i've been up to since '22
          
          - went to high school!!!
          - spent two years entangled in the kind of homoerotic friendship i used to read about in fanfic that resulted in some considerable emotional damage
          - moved to ao3 and briefly wrote stuff there, might pick it back up who knows
          - got cast in my school's production of chicago
          - got baptized and saved by Jesus!!
          - saw hamilton live (this is HUGEE)
          - saw gracie, maisie, laufey, and grace enger live
          - became rlly close friends with all my crushes for a time
          - started living more in the real world and not just vicariously through books. this one hurts to say, but i don't regret my years on this app. i truly did grow up and find the first corner of the world where i belonged here. love and miss u all xo

a small token of kindness [ 17th september 2025, wednesday ] 
          
          broken fury, dead incitement, delirium stitched in emotions. yearning winds, fanning destructions, branches that bury their homelands. 
          
          systemic disorientations, horrors owed to joys that bleed. mysterious differences, confusions constructed, alarms that ring but souls that refuse to awaken. 
          
          blaring conquerors, forgotten tunnels, coffee cooling beside unmade dread. thrumming fingertips, raging purposes, metamorphosis: humans crawling, carrying everyday banters. 
          
          the sun with a thousand eyes, the night with hidden crimes, feathers drowned in poet's ink. sorrows of lyrics, wings lost in the blue, life that feeds one melancholy, souls distilling it into hope. 
           #adropofhumanity

a small token of kindness [ 01st september, 2025 — monday] 
          
          words plated in heirlooms, heavy with light,
          tinkling cuts, dazzling wounds —
          weaponry forged from childhood gloom,
          wars cradled in a mother’s stolen womb. 
          
          windmills bow above folded clothes,
          grandmother’s peach crumble cooling on the sill.
          cottages lean, tethered with ghosts —
          growth a gamble, memory the wager. 
          
          tender hearts rest in greasy hands,
          coloured proses, begotten rhyme.
          measuring the gaps of fleeting hours,
          tidy rooms against the storm of rest. 
          
          roads of chemicals, an age of hearts,
          souls displaced, refugees of home.
          effervescence rushes, skeletons mist-bound —
          a tale as old as precedents. 
          
          labyrinthine dashes, nuance permitted,
          olives of faith, olives betrayed.
          a marathon — glass slippers sublime —
          and all of life becomes a floor for dancing,
          a garden for incitement,
          a bloom pressed against time. 
           #adropofhumanity 

a token of kindness [ 24th august, 2025 — sunday ] 
          
          where comes the chaos? soar and sin, the culprit,
          from the lodging inns. surrendered and sought,
          beavering, bold— a little of the timid, a lot of the known. 
          
          swinging with pride, doors left unknocked,
          a guest invited under intoxication’s hold.
          forging, jeopardising, guided by homely apple-pie servings; bruised words swept beneath the rug of humility. 
          
          barks and bellows, odours, open wounds,
          entangled chairs and a single creaking move.
          whisper, then wait, tremors that carry
          a mouth of screams— beginning and dying
          in a parched throat. 
          
          kalopsia and kites— a guest like ropeburn,
          pricking like wine. mindful maps, mindless routes,
          sanctuaries like lies that bury the truth.
          shadows stumble, shoes fade—
          a blessing strikes a menace, transforming a paper cut into a prayer. 
           #adropofhumanity 

miss y'all !!
          i can't believe i've grown up sm since wattpad omg

Anyone active? 
          The nostalgia is insane here

god, the memories here 
          hi! i haven’t been active since 2022 but yeah 
          how are y’all

y’all — 
          
          should I 
          
          1) delete this account because of the cringe associated with it and horrible ass writing 
          
          2) leave it up for shits and giggles and also cuz it was two years of hard work and effort and friends 

wanna flirt with my situationship again!! <33 she rejected me and I haven’t talked to her in like three months but I saw her at lunch today and she said she’d go down on me and I told her I’d take her up on it so like shsjdhdjxjxndjdkkddkdm
          
          I DON’T EVEN WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP I JUST WANNA SHAMELESSLY FLIRT WITH A HOT PERSON. anyway it’s your girl v doing shit in life, how are y’all? missing you and summer 2021. long love all the magic we made 

@niniukegirI WHICH PLATFORM *sobbing*