Madi

habby easter

i always wonder why i have my phone when not that many people talk to me, then i remember i have it mainly for the tons of downloaded music i have on it- i dont even use this godforsaken app. its marinating like everything else except for twitter and snapchat istg im sobbing

help what do i do with this account im so lost
          its empty

i loved history this year but next year im gonna hate it because
          
          well ill have to listen to take notes and im shit at that 

tbh...what do people even post on here. like wtf are you supposed to say. my brain is too empty for this

I HAVENT TOUCHED THIS IN MONTHS BUT IM GONNA BE MORE ACTIVE ON HERE

i cant go back to sleep so im staying up a couple hours

my guy friend keeps sending me a tiktok thats making me melt and he just keeps sending it and im literally so happy. i have not felt sleepy and happy at the same time in ages.

i have to get up in 15 minutes to take a shower so i can go to the doctor about my scoliosis. its making me realize i really need to get my shit together so i can wake up on the 5th for school.(context, ill have to shower even earlier than that)

tw/vent
          
          im so fking tired. like idc if you see this or not no ones around rn to talk to so ignore this if you want, just need to pour my negative ass energy somewhere.
          
          school starts on the 5th and anxiety has eaten away at me.
          i go back to the doctor on the 2nd about my scoliosis and im nervous about that.
          oh, i had major anxiety over literally eating food today over something really dumb and ate less than i usually do
          my mom came over and accused me of using chewing tobacco/cigarettes and started lecturing me BUT I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING SO WHAT THE FUCK? ALSO FOR CONTEXT I REALLY DONT LIKE MY MOM THAT MUCH SO HER BEING IN THE SAME ROOM AS ME ALONE PUT ME ON EDGE FOR LITERAL HOURS.
          i feel like my legs are about to give out im so tired god. i cant even cry about it in the corner of my room because im not home and surrounded by a bunch of people. also, ive spent most of my time alone for a few days and its driving me insane. thanks for reading. or not irdc