hi I don't know if I have the right person but if u are I have a message for u. I know u might be feeling like everyone heck like the world hate u, but u can't forget the ones who love u. I went through a similar thing when my mom passed. But u can't think like that u have to think positive and that might be hard sometimes. Look to the ones u love and the ones who truly love and care for u will help. Again don't know if this is the right person sorry if it isent and if it is keep going ;) !