godieinahole_3

I hate having moments when you know your not good enough 

I have the ever present emotional moment of 'just fuck it' syndrome.  Clearly i should be doing something. Ah fuck it. 
          
          This is now my new motto. Thank you. Have a nice day 

Helllooo 
             Ur username giving me advice i think 
          " go die in a hole " nice! 

When you wake up dead and your like damn its 7 am

Yesterday was supposed to be my day off to destress and chillll. Why do i feel worse???? What the hell is up that  

When i assigned myself as the parent i did not sign up for this. Where can i get myself another person so there is a dad and i can go back to bed. 

You know the mood where your like i wanna take a bath in lava. 
          Not because your sad BUT because lava looks so good. Like could you not. I know your not swimmable. But it looooooooks so satisfying and i wanna swim in it because its pretty. 

Do you ever just get the feeling that your not good enough. That no matter what you do you will never be enough for people. Now these people may be really important to YOU but your not as important to them. To the point that they dont care enough that your a reason to not do something.  Or at least think. And i know people can do whatever they want. And i know that. But will i ever be enough. I feel so worthless and useless and strange. Its like no matter what i do will never be enough. Even if its like giving presants or being someones friend. Or writing which will definitely never be good enough and being there for people which i suck at. Im so bad and never can encourage someone enough. Im so useless. 

And i really want to get this off of my chest.  But I know everyone else is going through shit that makes my mental state look like cotton candy. I dont wanna burden anyone with this bullshit. I really dont but i wanna get it out. So lol. Hahahhahahaha. We keeping it to ourselves and the nobodies that read this section. If you are reading this dw lol. I was talking about no body. And like you shouldnt be anyway. You good fam. Im not. But i hope you are. :)

I feel fucking greeeeeeaaaaaaaatttttttt :)