Tower Reeding

Tummy flips and somersaults are fucking real. Why?? 

"Date me,  just date me. Because at this rate, I can't seem to get through the day without you."
          
          Too close, too fast, chill. self. You have to be sure. 
          
          If there's anything you can do right by her and yourself,  is that you have to be sure. Because you both deserve nothing less than everything you have and can offer.

I miss having someone. I miss missing someone. I miss romance and cuddles and going home to someone's arms at the end of a long day when I'm tired. I miss loving and being loved. I miss 'you'. Nanad I haven't even met you yet. When will I find you. Will I ever find someone? 

Sending this message to my grip on reality - I need you to pull me out of here, I'm getting lost and might not find my way back. Already doubting myself if I want to turn back. So if you're out there, might need you to call out to me a bit. Snap me back. It wouldn't take more than a whisper, a breath - I just need to hear you. 

Sometimes, it's easier to show off my bight sides, cause really, everything behind it is just dark and black. 

I feel so much more in these stories than in real life. Is my life really that mundane, or am I falling into these fantasy worlds too much?
          
          I never read alice in wonderlang, but is that whats happening here?
          
          Am I dreaming my life away? Is this me lost in a magical world, after falling into a rabbit hole?
          
          Magical character and all?

Bored. Too bored. So bored. This is now the most thrilling part of my day. Posting to no one. 
          
          Yep. I'm bored.

I feel like I found my people here.